09-04-2004, 06:31 PM
Interrupted cleaning to go to Target. Was totally annoyed by a child in the video department, and struck by how our angelic little babies inevitably will become little people in their own right, and we have only so much control over how they turn out.
Stay little, Nick.
09-07-2004, 04:58 PM
went to the university and registered for a grad class. was huge ordeal but I start tomorrow night. considered doing more than one but couldn't bear to be away from Nick any more than three hours per week. pathetic, aren't I?
have put away two bags of clothing that no longer fits N. he's so big! *sigh*
09-07-2004, 07:11 PM
Chicken marsala for dinner tonight-- on the stove right now. don't like this marsala as well as the last bottle, though.
I can't believe I start class *tomorrow.* If I'm on at all tomorrow, remind me I need to send in my letter of nonrenewal to the state. Thanks.
Food food food. must go.
09-07-2004, 09:02 PM
recieved LB announcement today, with cute photo of LB in Oshkosh gear. Should make a scrapbook page of all my imaginary nieces and nephews in their Oshkosh gear. Package from Kate included Tuesday lipstick (which actually looks pretty good on me!) and the infamous TeePees. I told Nick I was going to take a photo of him wearing nothing but the teepee and show it to his prom date. He laughed and laughed!
09-09-2004, 09:57 AM
ubu ubu ubu!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wasn't online at all yesterday, was I? good if i was-- yesterday was frantic. 1st class was fun-- I'm learning Hmong language & culture-- but hard to be away from Sprout. He gave daddy a hard time and a new respect for me.
ooh, i found out last night that my cousin A is preggo. she's a 12th grader. yeeps. 5 months; due in Feb.
Sunny (who already needs a nap and it's only 10 am)
09-11-2004, 10:31 PM
long, busy day. started off bad-- K and I fought over nothing, and I was really taking it poorly-- but then it got better. went to Bradley class reunion and was disappointed that not half of our class showed. took photos with the two other babies from our class, and talked to the moms from that class and the other classes. I talked forever with one of the moms from the other class at her house after the picnic; she was really nice. She *gave* me a Maya wrap! I was so shocked. She said someone gave it to her and they never got the hang of it and she felt it should be passed on. I was a little uncomfortable taking it but I also wasn't going to say no. so, Nick is currently nursing in the Maya wrap and I am typing with TWO HANDS while he does so. Hurrah! I can't say that we have the thing figured out but we've only been trying for about 15 minutes. I couldn't BFIP the way he is now though. it's purely just supporting him so I don't need to, and wouldn't be if I was standing up. But we'll just have to practice. He seems so big when I try to put him in it. ack.. the honeymoon is over. he wants out. more later.
09-12-2004, 10:06 AM
I'm wearing him again today and it's basically good. hip position is great. now he is on my chest like he would be in the bjorn and it is decidedly not as comfortable as the bjorn (for me). But, that's fine-- now I know and I am lucky enough to have both, right? right.
after I left Shawna's house last night, I met K for dinner (though we could only grab fast food because I was so late) and poor Nick screamed the whole car ride up to Appleton. Screamed, not cried. His whole little face was distorted and red and his eyes were all puffy. Nothing helped. I almost pulled over or turned around but I didn't have my cell phone and I knew Kelly would be baffled at best and pissed off at worst, so we just pushed on. The moment I took him out of his carseat he snuggled into me and was content. I nursed him and then we went to dinner and he was fine the rest of the night. We got back to the school about 20 minutes before we were supposed to start and there were already kids there waiting-- freshman of course.
Am really pleased with this year's frosh class, though. Was a good time-- I only stayed until 9 but it was fun while I was there. Nick loves music and the lights and dancing with me. He even slept for a while. Good boy.
of course I ended up waiting up for K last night and I am paying for it this morning, because N didn't wait up and he got me up early. Am theoretically checking the laundry right now. We are having an association bbq at our house in three hours and I should be helping K finish up the cleaning, but I'm not. So there.
Sunny (who is getting a pain in her collarbone from this sling)
09-12-2004, 10:12 AM
he's always stressed in the car, but not usually to that extent. Central WI is pretty flat so I don't think we were changing altitudes. I think (honestly) that he is just used to being with me and he got hysterical when he couldn't see me and I didn't pick him up. I often get in the back seat with him when K is driving and he settles immediately if I am back there with him.
09-13-2004, 09:11 PM
my mom bought a jumparoo for Nick tonight. she just doesn't know it yet.
Had basically relaxing, cuddle the baby day. Needed it after this very busy weekend.
Tomorrow I have too much to think about. I need to do all my reading for my class, practice with the tapes, tackle the latest insurance rejection, pay bills, and if there is any time left over, edit photos from this weekend. There will not be time left over.
Sunny (who doesn't know if she mentioned that her insurance declined payment on all of Nick's newborn blood tests)
09-14-2004, 12:14 PM
it was all of his newborn blood tests-- the bilirubins, the glucose, the blood typing, the coombs, some other crap i don't know what it was. yeah. and they want money in 10 days. spent whole morning on this, going back and forth, as the insurance co says that they have a contract with the pathologists that says to write these tests off, and the pathologists say nuh-uh... five phone calls later I'm on a payment plan and crying on the living room floor. good times. but then I took a nap with my bebe and it all seems like a long time ago and less important.
must go wash dipes. love
09-14-2004, 10:19 PM
He was v.g. baby all evening. That's nice. He was showing signs of being cranky this afternoon because my friend Johnni called from England and I talked to her for two hours (gasp!) and so, yeah, sorta was ignoring him. But he lived through it.
My mom is supposed to come by tomorrow and watch him so that I can do my stuff for my class (which I plan on normally doing on the weekends but couldn't this weekend as was v. busy). Hopefully, she actually does this. I'm swamped.
Can hear squeaking so should go. Love.
09-15-2004, 09:27 PM
class tonight-- fun to learn language, pretty interesting video. almost worth leaving my baby. you know, I don't really worry about him while I am there and then I feel terrible when I find out that he cried and cried for me. Asked my prof about having a consistent break time so that I could have K bring N to nurse, and he said that he would declare 6:30 the official break time but if I needed to go out and we were still talking that was cool. Yipee for prof with young children who gets it.
Sunny (who thinks next week will be easier for K now)
09-16-2004, 09:41 AM
nicknames <--- just for me, really.
babeling is asleep. should be doing dishes or laundry. am not.
09-18-2004, 05:08 AM
yes. well, we get a 15 minute break anyway. he's just making sure we get it at the same time every week, so that I can have the baby there to eat. which is still unbelievably cool, of course. but he is not making a special break or anything.
snuck out of bed because i just wasn't sleeping anymore and K was snoring. N is going to wake up for sure and i feel guilty for him but not for the potential of waking up K. lately i've been feeling way underappreciated i guess. it seems i am getting snapped at for no reason every couple of days. do men get post partum? seriously, could they? for a while i was trying really hard not to piss him off but it's always something; last weekend he got mad at me for feeding the baby (he wanted to be leaving; nick wanted to be eating) and so i give up, you know?
I need to get a couple of bras with good support; the one i've been wearing the most is wonderful for my breasts but really hard on my neck and shoulders. i tried to wear my pregnancy bras (they were nursing bras, too, i thought i was being smart) but they are still too tight and i guess that is never going to change until i am done nursing, and then i won't need nursing bras. so that's $70 i will never get back. good thing i wore the hell out of them when i was pg. anyone have any good nursing bra suggestions? the catch is, they have to come in a ginormous cup size and smallish band size.
starting to feel sleepy again. might go lie back down.
Sunny (who could really use a massage, and has a gift certificate for one, but honestly doesn't want to leave her baby for something so frivolous)
09-18-2004, 01:05 PM
babe is asleep on my arm/shoulder. at 15-16 lbs, this is getting crazy hard to manage. my biceps are bulging!!!
09-19-2004, 04:30 PM
needed: nursing clothing that doesn't suck. must meet three criteria:
1. Must look like clothing I would actually wear.
2. Must make breastfeeding easier, rather than more complicated than running the freakin' space shuttle.
3. Must fit reasonably (taking into account size of breasts which does not mean I want an extra large)
main reason i want nursing clothing is a) excuse to buy clothing for this intermediate period and b) double layering conceals breast pads, which seem to show through everything else summery
going w/o pads is not an option.
honestly, at home i mostly strip and tee shirts are easy for bfip during the warm months. but wadding up warm clothing isn't all that appealing, either... would like fall clothing that's easy to nurse in and keeps me from being totally expsed/cold.
thought about the ponchos, actually. haven't tried one on yet, though. tend to see thm in "junior" departments which means itty bitty sizes.
a nice black nursing dress would be good, too, not so much for actually nursing him but for when I need to pump at shows. regular dresses are not so much designed for easy access to the boobs. I can (and do) just fold down the entire top of the dress but it's hard to even get it undone and redone up on my own.
programmed lights last night and today. went well enough. nick mostly just slept on me. really like our new controller as it is intuitive to use. still wish we wouldn't have had to have sprung for it, but the old controller was acting fishy and we *need* a functioning controller; it didn't make sense to buy a cheap one. but yeah, with money being how money is, and me doing laundry every other day in order to stay clothed, and etc etc, it was hard to purchase a new controller-- i'm so glad that we like it.
btw, badger care came through so we DO have health insurance. found out Friday. big huge enormous weight lifted. Will probably have to reapply next month, though-- I think it is really insane like that. But, for now, weight removed.
have to run to sears and get some tools replaced (gotta love craftsman) and then we are settling in for the night. hoping to watch a movie. watched "bruce almighty" already this weekend in segments and was mildly amused. but we have 16 more movies "recorded" on the dvr because we had a free month of HBO; I'd like to watch some of them.
adieu.
Sunny (who has a squirmy baby on her lap)
09-20-2004, 11:21 AM
Nick will be THREE MONTHS old on Wednesday. Am sad that it is Wednesday, as I have class and all. Would like to have done something little to celebrate.
Is it typical to get pro photos at 3, 6, and 9 months? It seems everyone I know does this. I could go to say, Walmart, and do it really, really cheaply, if it is standard procedure. Or, I could just take a nice photo and send that out, right? It feels like I just got the announcements out.
09-21-2004, 10:10 AM
lilypadz intrigue me. I don't really understand them, but the intrigue me. if they don't absorb milk, though, what do they do with it? I really leak *a lot* so if they just store it up, that doesn't work for me. If they keep me from leaking, I dunno, don't I leak for a reason? So yeah, confused by them. plus, I have a policy against buying products with purposefully mispelled names. I know, I know. But it drives me crazy. I don't buy anything "lite" either. I do buy "bi-o-kleen" products, even though it annoys me every time I see the container, because I haven't found anything comprable without a misspelling.
Sunny (who also makes an exception for Krispy Kreme doughnuts, but only when the light is on or it's a fundraiser)
09-23-2004, 08:31 AM
k brought n to the university last night and they had a great night-- no screaming. N wasn't all that hungry b/c k had to give him part of a bottle earlier. i knew exactly when, too, b/c i could feel in my breasts that n was hungry at 5:45. it's my own little spidey sense.
now that we have the jumper n's routine is changing-- he burns up so much energy in it. if i don't put him in it, he is fairly predictable, though.
09-23-2004, 11:01 AM
sleeping. ha, what is that today? smallish boy is an eating/puking machine today. sleep is an illusion.
cat came back last night from the vet. now I have a $150 vet bill. found ti on my desk this morning. bah. I knew it was going to be expensive when he had to spend the night. but at least he is all cleaned out now. but, they want us to give him prescription food and meds three times per day... am annoyed by prescription food because we have two cats so there is no way to give it to jsut one, but mostly annoyed because it requires byuing food fromt he bvet's office (nick is helpping me type, fingers on keyes and all, which is hilarious but impeding) in little bags which is so inconvient. the md eicine thing is more k's problem than mine. vetfrom yesterdya suggested giving him pumpkin for fiber so we'll try that, too. mmmm pumpklin.
too cute: mimmo
09-23-2004, 02:42 PM
nick is very sleepy/nursey today. have been online for hours! so many things i should have been doing instead...
we have a doubleheader this weekend (fri&sat weddings) and i exhausted just thinking about it.
mickey weaning... basically, she decided it was time. it went well enough. she had some trouble eliminating the 4:30 feeding but not that much trouble, really. i don't blame her for being ready to be done with that one! and he gave up his before bed feeding with literally no fuss. she was prepared for a fight on that one but not at all. after 3 days of not nursing, she got a clogged duct and was really uncomfy so she decided "screw weaning" and gave him the breast but he completely rejected it. i guess he was ready.
is it weird that this makes me sad? m is my only irl friend who was nursing. feel rather alone now. also, makes me think about the future-- both in the sense of it making me think of n weaning but also if we nurse longer than a year we'll be on our own. no more M and A trailblazing for us.
babeling is squirming. gotta go
09-24-2004, 10:18 AM
okay, I don't like country music, I'll admit it. But I have to listen to it occasionally because as djs, we have to know what's out there. we get a monthly country subscription and that is as far as I will go most of the time. but country music has the best tearjerker father daughter dances. while I was pregnant I would tear up every time I heard "tough little boys" which is about a man whose daughter reduces him to being a big baby. I cry when dad's sit in their daughters bedrooms after the wedding and cry. I am a huge baby. So, this is the latest country song to slay me. It's called "let them be little" and it's by Billy Dean... (lyrics)
Quote:
I can remember when you fit in the palm of my hand
Felt so good in it, no bigger than a minute
How it amazes me, you're changing with every blink
Faster than a flower blooms they grow up all too soon
So let them be little 'cause they're only that way for a while
Give them hope, give them praise, give them love every day
Let them cry, let them giggle, let them sleep in the middle
Oh just let them be little
I've never felt so much in one little tender touch
I live for those kisses, prayers and your wishes
Now that you're teaching me things only a child can see
Every night while we're on our knees all I ask is please
Let them be little 'cause they're only that way for a while
Give them hope, give them praise, give them love every day
Let them cry, let them giggle, let them sleep in the middle
Oh just let them be little
So innocent, a precious soul, you turn around
It's time to let them go
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Sigh. my baby is so big already. Everyone always says that in the moment it takes forever for them to grow but looking back it went so fast. I'm in the middle of it and it feels like it is slipping away faster than I can grasp. It's insane.
Last night, K started calling Nick "Nicholas E" with the E all drawn out and Nick would laugh and laugh. They laid on the bed for 20 minutes laughing their butts off. It was hilarious. The strange thing is that I never thought about Nicholas's middle initial before last night, and neither did Kelly. I mean, we both realized it wasn't J (we considered James) because our whole family has J as a middle initial, but we never thought about it beyond that. So, Nicholas Erik will become Nick E. AUUUUUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! After all my efforts to avoid "Nicky" as a nickname, Nick E. is his actual freakin' name! Dammit Jim.
Wedding tonight. Wedding tomorrow. poor little nick. he's going to think i ran away from home.
Sunny (who has developed a sudden headache)
09-25-2004, 12:45 PM
according to his daddy and his babysitters, he can really melt down. the only time i see it is in the car. or, say, when i am trying to get ready for a show and he wants to nurse for another half hour. I swear he knows when i'm getting ready to leave him (as opposed to just getting ready to take him somewhere) because he gets so upset.
09-26-2004, 12:13 PM
last night, i went to my parents to get the baby and he was sleeping so peacefully that i decided to just stay there. then, at about 2:00 in the morning, my mom ended up going to the hospital because her stomach was really hurting so we got up then and came home. she's okay; they don't know what the trouble is but they think it might be acid related. she said they want to do a scope and she might get it done today. what a weekend!
am exhausted. have to go pick up the pack n play from friday night babysitter's house. am thinking about getting her an ice cream cake (she never takes money so i have to be creative-- one weekend it was chocolates, another it was clothes for her kids, i'm running out of ideas).
but the baby let me sleep until 8:30 so i really can't complain.
think happy healthy thoughts for my mom, okay?
Sunny (who is so glad there are no more double headers this year)
09-26-2004, 08:09 PM
crazy good day. need to do laundry. fish and pasta and white asparagus for dinner to come-- in oven now. floppy head baby is alseep in maya wrap as i type. we both need a bath, but i am waiting until after he poops.
just got latest catalogue from natural foods co-op and really want to place an order, both in spirit of supporting such things and in the huge lack of whole foods once summer has gone, but am too poor. it's not like i'm buying non-organic juice; i'm buying no juice at all, you know?
need to call tomorrow and find out what HMO Nick's doctor accepts and then register with said HMO. Also need to make his 4 month appointment. Relatives are starting to ask about his three month photos so i either need to set something up here and take "fake" pro photos, or I need to take advantage of one of the coupons I have (JC Penny and Olan Mills) for really cheap photo sessions. The problem is, I'm a sucker and never stick to the cheap package. Am almost afraid. Though, could take my mom with when it comes time to purchase and she can be the sucker, and I could just stick with the one pose package. that's what grandparents are for, right?
went and saw my mom and she seems fine, except for being a little doped up. she'll hopefully know more tomorrow. knowing my mom, they'll never figure anything out, but that won't stop them from putting her on a shitload of drugs. she has a history of unusual illnesses
am pretty tired still. wanted to rent mean girls but don't think I would make it through a movie without passing out. have my first language assessment on wednesday and two papers due and am freaking out a little about the whole thing. I guess I could be working on it right now, while the baby sleeps, but i'm so zoned. Hopefully, I will be able to get something done while he naps tomorrow and tuesday, since I doubt that my mom will be up to watching him for a few hours while I catch up this week.
Yawn.
Sunny (who would already be in bed if she hadn't started dinner)
09-27-2004, 04:56 PM
n is not teething yet. i thought i saw a toothbud yesterday but this morning i did not see it anymore. was greatly relieved. he has been "chewing" on everything (my nipples included) for a week now and i couldn't imagine this combined with teeth, i really couldn't.
did i share my last set of fake blue backdropped photos? hmm. probably not, as he just gave me the lip.
